| september 11
god bless them.
i go back 2 skool tmrw. it fuckin sux.
im sicka bein tall, and im sicka bein white.
i wrote a poem. i suk at poetry. but...
The moment I stepped out of my safe haven I knew…
Knew it
was all wrong
I never
thought it would be like this
Its just
too much
Why must this be?
The darkness
is tugging on my hand….
The darkness
is pulling me…….
Pulling
me in
Until suddenly I cant breathe,
Cant take
it any more
Its all
too much
I
cant go on
I see smirks as I pass
Regarding
me with cold glares
Somehow I don’t
fit in
What
did I ever do to them?
We all know life isn’t fair
Who cares
how I look?
Must
I just hibernate in my hidden hollow?
Safe from
others… no damned mirror……
Till the end
The
blade of the knife glints
Hinting of
a better place?
I know that if I can just drive it deep enough…
It will
all be over soon….
I am lured by the coppery taste of blood
Thin sharp
pain……..brings me out of my daze….
A dizzy obsession…
Just
a little deeper…..
And I know
I can find the place…………..
yah. there it is. i wanna cut again, but i have to wait for the old scar to heal.
im being extra careful.......
some ppl are starting to notice. i read about what happens if cutters get caught..
then they have to go to the hospital, and.. i dont wanna think about it.
phsychiatrist, and all that shit. yuck.
i have no life. i need to get one. i wanna get with my friends soon. but theyre all so busy.
i wish the asian guys would pay more attention to me. lol
i wish anyone would. im so ugly.
thats why asian girls are so lucky. theyre almost always good looking. same with asian guys lol.
i wish a lotof things. i wish skool was shorter. and that i was
shorter. and that i had more classes with my friends. that i was pretty.
well thats all
i guess
oh i just remembered! miyavis
birthday is in 3 days. the 14th.yay. i just need to figure out the
melutomo form bye then! ahhhhhhh.
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